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© 1987, Roy Stucky

Awake! I see I've been asleep.
Awake! From the belly in the deep.
Awake! To the First Estate,
To crooked lines at last made straight.

Misted dreams now come alive
With meaning my sleeping
Could not provide.
I finally see my face,
And Your's too.
What was obscure
Is clear to eyes made new.

Childhood thoughts half grown
Rattle like Ezekiel's bones -
Pull together
Take on flesh -
Stand up and are given breath
By He Who conquered Death.

Awake! I see I've been asleep.
Awake! From the belly in the deep.
Awake! To the First Estate,
To crooked lines at last made straight.

People pass unaware.
If they knew would they care?
What was vital yesterday
Makes me weep today.

I was chasing a reflection
In the wrong direction.
But now I'm ...

Awake! I see I've been asleep.
Awake! From the belly in the deep.
Awake! To the First Estate,
To crooked lines at last made straight.

This song is about the first view of life with the new eyes of Christ, which is the ultimate epiphany.

"Belly in the deep" is a reference to Jonah/Jesus and their passage in the great fish/grave/hell.  It also ties to the sweet waves.

"First estate" is a reference to Eden.  In times past this phrase described the clergy, but of course they were hardly first.

"Crooked lines at last made straight" is a reference to John the Baptist.

"Misted dreams" ties to Open Your Heart.

"I finally see my face" ties to Looking Glass Self.

"Ezekiel's bones" is drawn from passage about the valley of dry bones.

"Would they care" prefigures his acceptance of the call of Season of Destiny to share the Truth to those still in the underground, who may not listen.  It is also a fact that one of the pains of a victory is that the world in general neither understands nor cares, so the rush of a massive inner change slams into the dogged inertia of an unaltered environment.

"Chasing a reflection" is his " shadows in the cave".


"These people saw nothing, knew nothing, and noticed nothing; nothing touched them.  A poor, graceful animal could expire under their own eyes, or a master could express all the hope, nobility, and suffering, all the dark tense anguish of human life, in the statue of a saint with shudder-inducing tangibility - they saw nothing, nothing moved them!"
Hermann Hesse

"When I was a child, I thought as a child"
I Corinthians 13:11

"One always needs to be reminded; one is by no means always in possession of one's whole self. Our consciousness is feeble; only in moments of unusual clarity and vision do we really know about ourselves."
Thomas Mann

"Awake sleeper, arise from the dead, and Christ will give you light."
Ephesians  5:14

"The millions are awake enough for physical labor; but only one in a million is awake enough for effective intellectual exertion, only one in a hundred million to a poetic or divine life.  To be awake is to be alive.  I have never yet met a man who was quite awake.  How could I have looked him in the face?"
Henry David Thoreau

“However, recognizing the dimensional differences between the human world and the divine world not only detracts from but also adds to knowledge and makes for wisdom. If a problem cannot be solved we may at least understand why it is unsolvable. Consider the saying that God writes straight on crooked lines. This is inconceivable on the plan of a page on which we imagine that God is writing. Writing straight means setting parallel letters perpendicular to the lines. On crooked lines the letters cannot be parallel. But if we consider a three-dimensional space rather than the two-dimensional plane of the page, it is perfectly possible to set parallel letters on crooked lines. In other words, on the grounds of dimensional differences between the human world and the diving world we may take a step beyond the step taken by Socrates, who said that he only knew that he did not know anything. We now know the reason why we cannot know everything. We understand why we cannot understand everything. What is even more important, we understand that something which seems to be impossible in a lower dimension, is perfectly possible in a higher one.”
Viktor Frankl



God (forever and ever)
The Holy Bible

Viktor Frankl (1905-1997)
The Will to Meaning (1970)

Hermann Hesse (1877-1962)
Narcissus and Goldmund (1930)

Thomas Mann (1875-1955)
The Magic Mountain (1924)

Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)
Walden (1854)


This lyric was written in July of 1987.

The inspiration was undergoing an awakening, an epiphany, then finding no one else was changed in the least though I felt as if my very facial features had been transformed.  This consequent surrealistic atmosphere was, and has continued to be, one of the strangest things about what Van Morrison called 'a major breakthrough'.


In the allegory, this song is about the joy of his first moments free of the delusion of the Tower project, flooded with understanding of things that had always been mysteries.

On the epiphany level this song represents his seeing that all those involved in the Tower are living a fatal delusion, mistaking shadows for reality.

"People pass unaware" is that one of the most disconcerting things about a massive internal transformation is that the world is oblivious.  In the allegory it is the tower workers going about their jobs still locked in the delusion from which he has emerged.


Groups with a voice in the government, in particular in 13th century Europe.
First Estate - the clergy in France, the Lords Spiritual in England
Second Estate - the nobles in France, the Lords Temporal in England
Third Estate - the commons in France, England