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Every Deadly Game
© May 1988, Roy Stucky

Kid's with money,
Dissatisfied.
Drugs and sex and suicide,
And old ones look surprised -
"But you had it all!"

We use science to banish illusion
But lose our children to confusion.
Can't your cultured eyes see?
You have no meaning to give.

If the cosmos is a joke
And Jesus just a name,
Why not play
Every deadly game?

Why am I here?
         Choose a career.
What is the creed?
         Don't be in need.
Where do I turn?
         Learn how to earn.
How can I live?
         Be productive.
Who am I?
         You've much to give.

Why? Why? Why?
Don't reply,
Don't lie that you have answers!

If the cosmos is a joke
And Jesus just a name,
Why not play
Every deadly game?

Your life is a mask for not knowing the way
To meaning in being the person you play.
Can't you see as you pay we laugh through our tears
At answers that confirm our fears?

If the cosmos is a joke
And Jesus just a name,
Why not play
Every deadly game?

What do you know?
What can you feel?
All you now own
You had to steal
From those half grown
Who ask what is real
But are given a stone
To try to conceal
That you took a loan
We must repay
By taking your place
And speaking the empty words you say.

If the cosmos is a joke
And Jesus just a name,
Why not play
Every deadly game?

 


The deadly game assumes it's ok to destroy yourself because you belong to yourself. But your life was given to you.

"Cultured eyes" plays off Friedrich Schleiermacher's, "On Religion: Speeches to Its Cultured Despisers".

"That you took out a loan" including the loan of body parts from prisoners in Red China.


use the C.S. Lewis quote from book, March 4

"As long as there is no ethical life and everything is poured so barbarously and recklessly into personal gesture this must be endured. And there is a peculiar longing for nonbeing. Maybe it is more accurate to say that people want to visit an other states of being in a diffused state of consciousness, not wishing to be any given thing but instead to become comprehensive, entering and leaving at will. Why should they be human? In most of the forms offered there is little scope for the great powers of nature in the individual, the abundant, generous powers. In business, in professions, in labor; as a member of the public; as an inhabitant of the cities, these strange pits; as experiencer of compulsions, manipulations; as endurer of strain; as father, husband obliging society by performing his quota of actions - the individual seems to feel these powers less, less and less. So it certainly seems to me that he wants a divorce from all the states that he knows."
Saul Bellow